kawan0 kawan, khamis
dah tiba lagi.. cepatnye mase berlalu. rase macam baru malam takdi naik bas dr trg ke sini (isnin lalu) huhu.. bahang VC semakin terase. korang tau, hari ni aku jumpe kak jehan.. hahaha.. best.. tapi seganlah dgn dia. sem depan dok leh jumpe dia doh.. dia praktikal..
aku tunggu result tubik err.. dok tubik tubik agi.. lain sibuk berdooh lalu.. pastu tunggu safaraz n bini dia.. dok muncul2 gok.. last last.. aku mengupdate laman aku yang kecik ni sementara menunggu mereka..
semua orang sibuk.. kak azim, kak fina, tony ( kumao) , kak milah, shaz, and semua runner.. tegang
dan tension serta stress mula kelihatan di wajah masing2.kesian.. penat dengan trainning untuk kampus masing2. bagus2.. chaiok uitm!!!
faris,.. pah rindu paksu dia.. aku pun same.. tapi ko dok tegor pun aku.. huhu.. aku wak saloh ker?
cerita pasal kesalahan aku .. well, ri ni aku screw up .
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
hari yang hujan
senyum kan sedekah
hemm.. hari ini di terengganu, hujan turun non stop dengan lebatnya.. sejuk sampai saya cuma mandi sekali jer hari ni, tu pun kejap jer.. tak tahan sejuk, subahanallah, macam siram diri sendiri dengan ais.. sejuk!
hujan macan hati saya pada malam ni, dingin dan sejuk..
cam ner ni boleh jadi??
hemm..
al kisahnya macam ni,dulu kat sekolah kompleks gong badak ada seorang budak perempuan yang agak chubby and a bit comot berkawan dengan seorang yang sangat alim dan warak..
budak perempuan tu sangat sayangi kawan dia ni, of course to be highlight here, just as kawan baik, kawan yang sentiasa mengambil berat akan kawan dia yang lain. walaupun dia nampak macam tak peduli pada kawan2 dia dan selalu je bagitau kat kawan dia yang sorang ni bahawa dia sedikit pun tak percayai kawan dia yang ni, tapi dia selalu je cari kawan dia, bagitau benda2 yang well.. can not be stated here..
otuke? otuke?
Tuhan, saya sangat rindui dia.. sangat2
saya tahu rindui dia adalah salah, tapi saya sangat rindui kawan baik saya ni, saya rindu usikan dia, saya rindu dengan senyuman dia.. saya nak dia sentiasa bahagia.. walaupun in return, saya kena korbankan kebahagiaan saya..
tapi dia tetiba tinggalkan saya.. dia kata dia kena lupakan semua kenangan dia.. termasuk saya.. dia nak bina kehidupan baru.. tanpa saya..
saya faham.. nak ubati hati yang terluka bukan senang.. tapi wajarkah ubati hati yang terluka dangan melukakan hati orang lain.. saya tahu saya tak layak pun nak bergelar sahabat dia.. saya tahu tu.. tapi, dah terlalu banyak kenangan antara saya dengan dia yang sukar nak dipadamkan.. paham tak?? tapi saya tak kata apa2 pun masa dia tinggalkan saya.. dia tak ada pun diwaktu saya sangat perlukan dia.. masa saya sangat2 gila.. saya tahu... Tuhan bersama saya, tapi saya dah biasa bila saya susah, hati saya sejuk, dia hadir dan berikan kata kata nasihat supaya saya tak putus asa.. menjadi guru, motivator yang baik.. terlalu baik sehingga sukar untuk saya lepaskan dia pergi.. saya faham.. dia sakit.. dia perlu ubati hati dia pada masa itu.. dia pergi.. saya redha.. tak persoalkan apa2 pun.. saya rindui dia , sangat2 tapi saya pujuk hati saya ... perpisahan sementara adalah sebagai latihan untuk perpisahan selamanya.. then, I just let him go...
regardless of how many sweet memory .. i let him go.. saya bersyukur, sekurang2 nya Tuhan mempertemukan saya dengan dia, walaupun sekejap.. walaupun he was annoying me dengan usikan bodoh dan lawak dia .. oh God.. how I missed him right now..
tibe2 pas bertahun dia hilang.. tibe2 muncul.. cam "aina suprise!!" dengan mengatakan saya sesat jauh.. kembali ke pangkal jalan.. who the hell is he right now? kami adalah stranger semata mata.. saya sangat marah sebab dia tak ada pun time saya sangat sangat gila dan susah.. dan tetiba hadir, tuduh saya bukan bukan.. saya tak heran pun dengan tuduhan dia tu, tapi saya tak tahulah, tetibe jer hati saya sangat terluka dan kecewa.. marah sangat..
dia dah hilang, kenapa muncul balik?
tapi saya sangat sayangi dia.. saya tak leh lepaskan kenangan saya dengan dia.. kenangan tu cam menghantui dia.. for the first time in my whole life, saya marah dia..and then dia marah saya balik, dia kata saya foul.. bukan saya lah, dia kata perkataan saya guna foul.. dan dia kata saya berubah...
semua orang berubah.. tapi saya masih gadis comot yang sama yang dia permah kenal, yang pernah jadi kawan baik dia.. dia tak tahu apa yang berlaku kat saya sementara dia 'ghaib' and saya dah bagitau kat diri saya, jangan terluka sebab dia.. but, i did, i always did hurt because of him.. dan saya tetap sakit tanpa dia
sebagai manusia saya sayang pada dia
kenapa saya tulis post ni? kawan saya tetibe bagitau saya yang dia tanya saya adakah saya masih marahkan dia? hari tu dia kata saya marah gila( marah sangat2)....
aku dok maroh mung doh, siket pung dok tau.. tu kisah lama.. dan aku mintok maap sebab aku maroh mung dulu..
aku mana boleh maroh mung lame2.. sebab mung kang kawang aku.. kawang baek lok tu..
biar ah mung tak boh kawang doh dengang aku pong, tapi, bagi aku, sekali aku doh kawang, aku akan mati sabagai kawang mung.. paham dok?
boleh dok kalau aku nok kita rapat macam dulu???
hemm.. hari ini di terengganu, hujan turun non stop dengan lebatnya.. sejuk sampai saya cuma mandi sekali jer hari ni, tu pun kejap jer.. tak tahan sejuk, subahanallah, macam siram diri sendiri dengan ais.. sejuk!
hujan macan hati saya pada malam ni, dingin dan sejuk..
cam ner ni boleh jadi??
hemm..
al kisahnya macam ni,dulu kat sekolah kompleks gong badak ada seorang budak perempuan yang agak chubby and a bit comot berkawan dengan seorang yang sangat alim dan warak..
budak perempuan tu sangat sayangi kawan dia ni, of course to be highlight here, just as kawan baik, kawan yang sentiasa mengambil berat akan kawan dia yang lain. walaupun dia nampak macam tak peduli pada kawan2 dia dan selalu je bagitau kat kawan dia yang sorang ni bahawa dia sedikit pun tak percayai kawan dia yang ni, tapi dia selalu je cari kawan dia, bagitau benda2 yang well.. can not be stated here..
otuke? otuke?
Tuhan, saya sangat rindui dia.. sangat2
saya tahu rindui dia adalah salah, tapi saya sangat rindui kawan baik saya ni, saya rindu usikan dia, saya rindu dengan senyuman dia.. saya nak dia sentiasa bahagia.. walaupun in return, saya kena korbankan kebahagiaan saya..
tapi dia tetiba tinggalkan saya.. dia kata dia kena lupakan semua kenangan dia.. termasuk saya.. dia nak bina kehidupan baru.. tanpa saya..
saya faham.. nak ubati hati yang terluka bukan senang.. tapi wajarkah ubati hati yang terluka dangan melukakan hati orang lain.. saya tahu saya tak layak pun nak bergelar sahabat dia.. saya tahu tu.. tapi, dah terlalu banyak kenangan antara saya dengan dia yang sukar nak dipadamkan.. paham tak?? tapi saya tak kata apa2 pun masa dia tinggalkan saya.. dia tak ada pun diwaktu saya sangat perlukan dia.. masa saya sangat2 gila.. saya tahu... Tuhan bersama saya, tapi saya dah biasa bila saya susah, hati saya sejuk, dia hadir dan berikan kata kata nasihat supaya saya tak putus asa.. menjadi guru, motivator yang baik.. terlalu baik sehingga sukar untuk saya lepaskan dia pergi.. saya faham.. dia sakit.. dia perlu ubati hati dia pada masa itu.. dia pergi.. saya redha.. tak persoalkan apa2 pun.. saya rindui dia , sangat2 tapi saya pujuk hati saya ... perpisahan sementara adalah sebagai latihan untuk perpisahan selamanya.. then, I just let him go...
regardless of how many sweet memory .. i let him go.. saya bersyukur, sekurang2 nya Tuhan mempertemukan saya dengan dia, walaupun sekejap.. walaupun he was annoying me dengan usikan bodoh dan lawak dia .. oh God.. how I missed him right now..
tibe2 pas bertahun dia hilang.. tibe2 muncul.. cam "aina suprise!!" dengan mengatakan saya sesat jauh.. kembali ke pangkal jalan.. who the hell is he right now? kami adalah stranger semata mata.. saya sangat marah sebab dia tak ada pun time saya sangat sangat gila dan susah.. dan tetiba hadir, tuduh saya bukan bukan.. saya tak heran pun dengan tuduhan dia tu, tapi saya tak tahulah, tetibe jer hati saya sangat terluka dan kecewa.. marah sangat..
dia dah hilang, kenapa muncul balik?
tapi saya sangat sayangi dia.. saya tak leh lepaskan kenangan saya dengan dia.. kenangan tu cam menghantui dia.. for the first time in my whole life, saya marah dia..and then dia marah saya balik, dia kata saya foul.. bukan saya lah, dia kata perkataan saya guna foul.. dan dia kata saya berubah...
semua orang berubah.. tapi saya masih gadis comot yang sama yang dia permah kenal, yang pernah jadi kawan baik dia.. dia tak tahu apa yang berlaku kat saya sementara dia 'ghaib' and saya dah bagitau kat diri saya, jangan terluka sebab dia.. but, i did, i always did hurt because of him.. dan saya tetap sakit tanpa dia
sebagai manusia saya sayang pada dia
kenapa saya tulis post ni? kawan saya tetibe bagitau saya yang dia tanya saya adakah saya masih marahkan dia? hari tu dia kata saya marah gila( marah sangat2)....
aku dok maroh mung doh, siket pung dok tau.. tu kisah lama.. dan aku mintok maap sebab aku maroh mung dulu..
aku mana boleh maroh mung lame2.. sebab mung kang kawang aku.. kawang baek lok tu..
biar ah mung tak boh kawang doh dengang aku pong, tapi, bagi aku, sekali aku doh kawang, aku akan mati sabagai kawang mung.. paham dok?
boleh dok kalau aku nok kita rapat macam dulu???
Thursday, November 12, 2009
hemm...
Solitary Osteochondroma
Solitary osteochondroma is a developmental abnormality of bone. It occurs when part of the growth plate forms an outgrowth on the surface of the bone. This bone outgrowth may or may not have a stalk. When a stalk is present, the structure is called pedunculated. When no stalk is present, it is called sessile.
An osteochondroma may grow in a child or adolescent. Its growth usually stops at maturity.
Solitary osteochondromas are thought to be the most common noncancerous (benign) bone tumor. They account for 35 percent to 40 percent of all benign bone tumors.
Solitary osteochondroma is diagnosed in patients aged 10 to 30. It occurs equally in males and females. It does not result from injury. It is thought to arise during skeletal growth when bone grows away from the growth plate instead of in line with it. Because the cause of solitary osteochondroma is unknown, doctors have not been able to find a way to prevent it.
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Symptoms
The most common symptom of an osteochondroma is a painless bump near the joints. The knee and shoulder are more commonly involved.
Solitary osteochondroma can be found at the ends of any long bone and along the pelvis and bones that make up the shoulder. If the stalk of a pedunculated osteochondroma breaks, pain and swelling may start immediately.
An osteochondroma can be located under a tendon. When it is, snapping of the tissue over the tumor may cause activity-related pain.
An osteochondroma can be located near a nerve or blood vessel, such as behind the knee. When it is, there may be numbness and tingling in that extremity. A tumor that presses on a blood vessel may cause periodic changes in blood flow. This can cause loss of pulse or changes in color of the limb. Changes in blood flow resulting from an osteochondroma are rare.
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Diagnosis
A plain X-ray will show the bony growth. A magnetic resonance imaging (MRI) scan may be used to look for cartilage on the surface of the bony growth. Such cartilage in an adult patient should be checked for cancer if it is larger than two centimeters in size, or if there is pain. A computed tomography (CT) scan may also be used.
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Treatment
Nonsurgical Treatment
Most of the time, solitary osteochondroma is not removed surgically. The doctor will carefully observe it. He or she may want to take regular X-rays to keep track of any changes.
Surgical Treatment
When surgery is recommended, it is best to wait until growth is complete (a mature skeleton by X-ray evaluation) before removing a solitary osteochondroma. This decreases the chance of the tumor growing back.
Surgery may be considered if the osteochondroma:
* Is causing pain with activity
* Puts pressure on a nerve or blood vessel
* Has a large cap of cartilage
The osteochondroma is removed at the level of the normal bone. Some of the inside of the bone may also be removed.
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Research on the Horizon
Osteochondromas are thought to be associated with a gene called EXT 1. This is currently poorly understood. Researchers are investigating it.
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Multiple Osteochondromatosis
Multiple osteochondromatosis is also called multiple osteocartilaginous exostosis, multiple hereditary exostosis (MHE), familial osteochondromatosis, multiple hereditary osteochondromatosis, or diaphyseal aclasia.
Plain radiographs of the proximal fibula of a 15-year-old girl presenting with a painless, firm lateral leg mass. Left: Anteroposterior view shows a well-marginated osseous lesion superimposed on the proximal fibula, but the lateral view (center) shows continuity of the medullary cavity of the long bone with the center of the lesion. Right, Computed tomography shows the medullary space in continuity with the lesion, and a small cartilage cap, both of which are characteristic of an exostosis. Arrows indicate the osteochondroma.
(Reproduced with permission from Richards BS (ed): Orthopaedic Knowledge Update: Pediatrics. Rosemont, IL, American Academy of Orthopaedic Surgeons, 1996.)
About 70 percent of the time, it is inherited. About 30 percent of the time, it occurs randomly.
Multiple osteochondromatosis affects males more often than females. It usually happens within the first three decades of life. Alterations in genes called EXT genes are thought to be the cause of this disease. It can be passed along in families. There is no other known risk factor or cause. There is increased risk of benign tumors changing to cancer (malignant transformation).
Top of page
Symptoms
Symptoms are the same as solitary osteochondroma. The number and location of osteochondromas varies. A patient may also have deformities of the forearms, a short stature, and knock-knees and ankles. This is caused by abnormal growth in the bones affected by the osteochondromas.
Symptoms and signs of a tumor becoming cancerous are:
* Growth of an osteochondroma after puberty
* Pain at the site of an osteochondroma
* A cartilage cap larger than two centimeters
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Diagnosis
Preoperative (left) and postoperative (right) radiographs of the forearm of a 21-year-old woman with multiple osteochondromas and restricted pronation and supination of the forearm. Postoperatively, she regained nearly complete pronation and supination. Arrows indicate the osteochondromas.
(Reproduced with permission from Aboulafia AJ, Temple TH, Scully SP: Treatment of benign bone tumors, in Beaty JH (ed): Instructional Course Lectures Volume 51. Rosemont, IL, American Academy of Orthopaedic Surgeons, 2002.)
It is diagnosed when two or more osteochondromas are seen on plain X-rays. Multiple osteochondromatosis has been associated with EXT 1 and EXT 2 genes. These genes are now being studied. The way they act is not well understood.
X-ray findings are the same as with solitary osteochondromas.
If cancer is suspected, you may need a thorough evaluation. This includes magnetic resonance imaging and computed tomography scans of the tumor.
Pain at the site of a mass or growth after puberty should be evaluated by a doctor who specializes in treatment of bone tumors. The most common malignancy found in this transformation is called chondrosarcoma.
A computed tomography scan of the chest helps look for any disease that may have traveled through the bloodstream to the lungs.
Preoperative (left) and postoperative (right) CT scans of a 25 year old man with sciatica. Osteochondroma arising from the sacrum was incidentally discovered during CT scan of the spine performed for evaluation of sciatica. In the postoperative cut scan, metallic clips identify the site of the resection. The osteochondroma was seen to displace the sacral plexus. Postoperatively, the patient's sciatica resolved completely. Arrow indicates the osteochondroma.
(Reproduced with permission from Aboulafia AJ, Temple TH, Scully SP: Treatment of benign bone tumors, in Beaty JH (ed): Instructional Course Lectures Volume 51. Rosemont, IL, American Academy of Orthopaedic Surgeons, 2002.)
Sometimes the doctor may remove a piece of tissue from the tumor (biopsy). This is used to look at cells under a microscope.
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Treatment
Nonsurgical Treatment
Most of the time, multiple osteochondromas are not removed surgically. Tumors that do not show signs of cancer are watched carefully. Deformities such as knock-knees or ankles may need surgery to straighten the bone.
Surgical Treatment
The tumor may be completely removed. This may also include taking out a whole portion of bone, which may need to be replaced with a prosthesis. Chemotherapy and radiation therapy are not usually needed.
Solitary osteochondroma is a developmental abnormality of bone. It occurs when part of the growth plate forms an outgrowth on the surface of the bone. This bone outgrowth may or may not have a stalk. When a stalk is present, the structure is called pedunculated. When no stalk is present, it is called sessile.
An osteochondroma may grow in a child or adolescent. Its growth usually stops at maturity.
Solitary osteochondromas are thought to be the most common noncancerous (benign) bone tumor. They account for 35 percent to 40 percent of all benign bone tumors.
Solitary osteochondroma is diagnosed in patients aged 10 to 30. It occurs equally in males and females. It does not result from injury. It is thought to arise during skeletal growth when bone grows away from the growth plate instead of in line with it. Because the cause of solitary osteochondroma is unknown, doctors have not been able to find a way to prevent it.
Top of page
Symptoms
The most common symptom of an osteochondroma is a painless bump near the joints. The knee and shoulder are more commonly involved.
Solitary osteochondroma can be found at the ends of any long bone and along the pelvis and bones that make up the shoulder. If the stalk of a pedunculated osteochondroma breaks, pain and swelling may start immediately.
An osteochondroma can be located under a tendon. When it is, snapping of the tissue over the tumor may cause activity-related pain.
An osteochondroma can be located near a nerve or blood vessel, such as behind the knee. When it is, there may be numbness and tingling in that extremity. A tumor that presses on a blood vessel may cause periodic changes in blood flow. This can cause loss of pulse or changes in color of the limb. Changes in blood flow resulting from an osteochondroma are rare.
Top of page
Diagnosis
A plain X-ray will show the bony growth. A magnetic resonance imaging (MRI) scan may be used to look for cartilage on the surface of the bony growth. Such cartilage in an adult patient should be checked for cancer if it is larger than two centimeters in size, or if there is pain. A computed tomography (CT) scan may also be used.
Top of page
Treatment
Nonsurgical Treatment
Most of the time, solitary osteochondroma is not removed surgically. The doctor will carefully observe it. He or she may want to take regular X-rays to keep track of any changes.
Surgical Treatment
When surgery is recommended, it is best to wait until growth is complete (a mature skeleton by X-ray evaluation) before removing a solitary osteochondroma. This decreases the chance of the tumor growing back.
Surgery may be considered if the osteochondroma:
* Is causing pain with activity
* Puts pressure on a nerve or blood vessel
* Has a large cap of cartilage
The osteochondroma is removed at the level of the normal bone. Some of the inside of the bone may also be removed.
Top of page
Research on the Horizon
Osteochondromas are thought to be associated with a gene called EXT 1. This is currently poorly understood. Researchers are investigating it.
Top of page
Multiple Osteochondromatosis
Multiple osteochondromatosis is also called multiple osteocartilaginous exostosis, multiple hereditary exostosis (MHE), familial osteochondromatosis, multiple hereditary osteochondromatosis, or diaphyseal aclasia.
Plain radiographs of the proximal fibula of a 15-year-old girl presenting with a painless, firm lateral leg mass. Left: Anteroposterior view shows a well-marginated osseous lesion superimposed on the proximal fibula, but the lateral view (center) shows continuity of the medullary cavity of the long bone with the center of the lesion. Right, Computed tomography shows the medullary space in continuity with the lesion, and a small cartilage cap, both of which are characteristic of an exostosis. Arrows indicate the osteochondroma.
(Reproduced with permission from Richards BS (ed): Orthopaedic Knowledge Update: Pediatrics. Rosemont, IL, American Academy of Orthopaedic Surgeons, 1996.)
About 70 percent of the time, it is inherited. About 30 percent of the time, it occurs randomly.
Multiple osteochondromatosis affects males more often than females. It usually happens within the first three decades of life. Alterations in genes called EXT genes are thought to be the cause of this disease. It can be passed along in families. There is no other known risk factor or cause. There is increased risk of benign tumors changing to cancer (malignant transformation).
Top of page
Symptoms
Symptoms are the same as solitary osteochondroma. The number and location of osteochondromas varies. A patient may also have deformities of the forearms, a short stature, and knock-knees and ankles. This is caused by abnormal growth in the bones affected by the osteochondromas.
Symptoms and signs of a tumor becoming cancerous are:
* Growth of an osteochondroma after puberty
* Pain at the site of an osteochondroma
* A cartilage cap larger than two centimeters
Top of page
Diagnosis
Preoperative (left) and postoperative (right) radiographs of the forearm of a 21-year-old woman with multiple osteochondromas and restricted pronation and supination of the forearm. Postoperatively, she regained nearly complete pronation and supination. Arrows indicate the osteochondromas.
(Reproduced with permission from Aboulafia AJ, Temple TH, Scully SP: Treatment of benign bone tumors, in Beaty JH (ed): Instructional Course Lectures Volume 51. Rosemont, IL, American Academy of Orthopaedic Surgeons, 2002.)
It is diagnosed when two or more osteochondromas are seen on plain X-rays. Multiple osteochondromatosis has been associated with EXT 1 and EXT 2 genes. These genes are now being studied. The way they act is not well understood.
X-ray findings are the same as with solitary osteochondromas.
If cancer is suspected, you may need a thorough evaluation. This includes magnetic resonance imaging and computed tomography scans of the tumor.
Pain at the site of a mass or growth after puberty should be evaluated by a doctor who specializes in treatment of bone tumors. The most common malignancy found in this transformation is called chondrosarcoma.
A computed tomography scan of the chest helps look for any disease that may have traveled through the bloodstream to the lungs.
Preoperative (left) and postoperative (right) CT scans of a 25 year old man with sciatica. Osteochondroma arising from the sacrum was incidentally discovered during CT scan of the spine performed for evaluation of sciatica. In the postoperative cut scan, metallic clips identify the site of the resection. The osteochondroma was seen to displace the sacral plexus. Postoperatively, the patient's sciatica resolved completely. Arrow indicates the osteochondroma.
(Reproduced with permission from Aboulafia AJ, Temple TH, Scully SP: Treatment of benign bone tumors, in Beaty JH (ed): Instructional Course Lectures Volume 51. Rosemont, IL, American Academy of Orthopaedic Surgeons, 2002.)
Sometimes the doctor may remove a piece of tissue from the tumor (biopsy). This is used to look at cells under a microscope.
Top of page
Treatment
Nonsurgical Treatment
Most of the time, multiple osteochondromas are not removed surgically. Tumors that do not show signs of cancer are watched carefully. Deformities such as knock-knees or ankles may need surgery to straighten the bone.
Surgical Treatment
The tumor may be completely removed. This may also include taking out a whole portion of bone, which may need to be replaced with a prosthesis. Chemotherapy and radiation therapy are not usually needed.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
menerima kenyataan memang pahit.
Oh Tuhan, aku tak tahu apa perasaan aku sekarang. hanya Kau aje yang tahu.. aku rasa takut, tertanya- tanya dan jujur, tak berpuas hati tapi siapa aku untuk menpersoalkan ape yang kau takdirkan padaku. semua dah tersurat di luh mahfuz bahawa takdir aku begini bukan?
sepatutnya aku bersyukur kerana sekurang kurangnya selama 19 tahun aku hidup aku masih mampu berjalan dan berlari,tanpa menyusahkan orang lain, tanpa perlu menjadi liabiliti pada orang lain. aku insan kerdil tuhan.. aku sangat takut dan lemah.. sangat sangat takut..
aku tahu tika aku menaip luahan hati ini Kau ada melihat Aku kerana Kau tak pernah tidur atau melupakan Aku.. tapi menerima kenyataan yang aku bukan seperti orang lain itu pahit Ya Allah... setiap patah Dr Azhar tersemat kukuh dalam sanubari aku...
puas aku cuba pujuk hati sendiri, tapi, aku tak berjaya.. siapa aku untuk menghalang takdirku..
aku tak bersedia untuk mati.. aku takut untuk mati kerna aku tahu dosa yang aku tanggung dan galas sangat besar.. aku juga tidak mahu mewariskan genetik ini pada keturunanku. aku tak mahu suatu hari nanti anak- anak aku rasa apa yang aku rasa...apa yang aku pernah lalui..
aku tahu hidup tak semestinya indah .. kadang - kadang aku menangis ,ku seringkali aku kecewa kerana tak dapat apa yang aku hajati.. tapi aku percaya ya Allah, sekurang- kurangnya Kau masih izinkan aku hidup, hingga ke saat ini.. hidup sebagai manusia yang bernama aku..
kau masih izinkan aku bernafas, merasai teriknya matahari, merasai dinginya hujan, tertawa bersama rakan- rakan dan mereka yang kau hadirkan dalam hidup aku yang begitu menyayangi aku..
terima kasih untuk itu Tuhan
maka dengan itu ya Allah, jangan Kau golongkan aku sebagai orang yang kufur yang mempersoalkan apa yang Kau tentukan buat aku,, orang yang kufur yang tak tahu apa erti bersyukur.. redhakanlah hatiku Ya Allah..
aku tahu Kau sayang pada aku.... amin
Oh Tuhan, aku tak tahu apa perasaan aku sekarang. hanya Kau aje yang tahu.. aku rasa takut, tertanya- tanya dan jujur, tak berpuas hati tapi siapa aku untuk menpersoalkan ape yang kau takdirkan padaku. semua dah tersurat di luh mahfuz bahawa takdir aku begini bukan?
sepatutnya aku bersyukur kerana sekurang kurangnya selama 19 tahun aku hidup aku masih mampu berjalan dan berlari,tanpa menyusahkan orang lain, tanpa perlu menjadi liabiliti pada orang lain. aku insan kerdil tuhan.. aku sangat takut dan lemah.. sangat sangat takut..
aku tahu tika aku menaip luahan hati ini Kau ada melihat Aku kerana Kau tak pernah tidur atau melupakan Aku.. tapi menerima kenyataan yang aku bukan seperti orang lain itu pahit Ya Allah... setiap patah Dr Azhar tersemat kukuh dalam sanubari aku...
puas aku cuba pujuk hati sendiri, tapi, aku tak berjaya.. siapa aku untuk menghalang takdirku..
aku tak bersedia untuk mati.. aku takut untuk mati kerna aku tahu dosa yang aku tanggung dan galas sangat besar.. aku juga tidak mahu mewariskan genetik ini pada keturunanku. aku tak mahu suatu hari nanti anak- anak aku rasa apa yang aku rasa...apa yang aku pernah lalui..
aku tahu hidup tak semestinya indah .. kadang - kadang aku menangis ,ku seringkali aku kecewa kerana tak dapat apa yang aku hajati.. tapi aku percaya ya Allah, sekurang- kurangnya Kau masih izinkan aku hidup, hingga ke saat ini.. hidup sebagai manusia yang bernama aku..
kau masih izinkan aku bernafas, merasai teriknya matahari, merasai dinginya hujan, tertawa bersama rakan- rakan dan mereka yang kau hadirkan dalam hidup aku yang begitu menyayangi aku..
terima kasih untuk itu Tuhan
maka dengan itu ya Allah, jangan Kau golongkan aku sebagai orang yang kufur yang mempersoalkan apa yang Kau tentukan buat aku,, orang yang kufur yang tak tahu apa erti bersyukur.. redhakanlah hatiku Ya Allah..
aku tahu Kau sayang pada aku.... amin
Saturday, October 24, 2009
bless upon you
senyum kan sedekah, remember, a smile is a gift. a gift that all of us love. smile can varnish angry and hate. for that reason I always smiling. but when we are mad, we cannot smile anymore. in my context- i cant give my smile to these pretending people- some of my classmates who are backstabber - willing to stab their friends when they felt like they dislike or annoyed with that particular people. HEY!! ingat sikit, what goes in, comes around. ape2 yamh korang buat pada hari ini, Allah akan balas balik tau. jangan tau cari cacat dan aib orang lain aje, sedangkan kamu tu ada cacat dan aib masing2. aku pun tak sempurna and perfection cannot be found in this world. mark my word- what goes in comes around.
korang, sedar2lah, exam dah dekat.. hentikanlah mengumpat orang lain. ape, korang in begitu suka makan daging saudara sendiri ker? kalau yer, sukahati koranglah, tapi ingat, bukan aje ape yang korang buat kat orang lain tu tuhan akan balas balik, tapi pahala korang yang penat2 korang kumpul diambil percuma oleh orang yang korang umpat dan jatuhkan tue..
minta maaflah sebelum terlambat yer dan jangan ingat diri tu bagus sangat.
jangan jadi lebih teruk dari lalat, lalat hanya menyebarkan kuman pada sesuatu yang dihinggapinya, jangan jadi cam charlie yang hinggap hingga meninggalkan nanah dan luka. tapi jadilah can lebah, walaupun berbisa, tapi menggunakan bisa untuk mempertahankan diri aje and siap produce madu lagi
kepada sesiapa hamba Allah yang terasa, baguslah, mungkin kamu leh ubah kot. maaf jugak kalau post ini menyakitkan mana2 pihak. tapi- tepuk dada, tanyalah- adakah anda terasa? jika ys, anda tahu apa yang perlu dilakukan, bukan?
hidup terlalu singkat untuk tidak memaafkan dan hati terlalu sempit untuk ruang kebencian..
and when you want something, you will give in something in return.
(friendship=love+ trust+hurt+ forgiveness-hate)= happiness
kpd mr oma- tahns, bank rec aku dapat full mark!!!hehe, tmas jugak pada pn hawa, kami dah mahir cket acc,kurang2 dari dulu buta terus sekarang dah nampak sikit walaupun kabur2. alhamdulillah. kpd poye, I owe you one! thanks, buat baik dibalas baik, semoga tuhan balas balik perbuatan baik kau, im happy to have you as my classmate. poye... aku saaayannnnng kau, hey, sebagai kawan je tau.
in the nutshell, aku nak wish kawan kawan aku terutamanya wana,pah,arep, amat, poye, yun, and semua kelas bas 1b best of luck in our final.vidya, ed, ija, dia, syikim,sab,aku tau kita semua leh perform.insyaAllah.ezzah, dayang kema,oli lena,mahirah, fighting!!!."show them how worth we are" -ni addy pnye quote yeng aku kopie tanpa hakcipta. to addy- dont sue me.. hehe
again, best of luck is also dedicated to pak cik faris, mr sir omar qayyum, noel, addy ,kak jehan, kak azim dan semua senior dbte aku..teman dbte seperjuangan pun tak terkecuali, mira, cute dan comel bobo, nik,
i love youguys as much as i love dbting...
to amy and fasha, credited for that day's good advices. im thankful because Allah let us meet. hehe
till then, sekian sudah untuk sesi hari ni, salam.
korang, sedar2lah, exam dah dekat.. hentikanlah mengumpat orang lain. ape, korang in begitu suka makan daging saudara sendiri ker? kalau yer, sukahati koranglah, tapi ingat, bukan aje ape yang korang buat kat orang lain tu tuhan akan balas balik, tapi pahala korang yang penat2 korang kumpul diambil percuma oleh orang yang korang umpat dan jatuhkan tue..
minta maaflah sebelum terlambat yer dan jangan ingat diri tu bagus sangat.
jangan jadi lebih teruk dari lalat, lalat hanya menyebarkan kuman pada sesuatu yang dihinggapinya, jangan jadi cam charlie yang hinggap hingga meninggalkan nanah dan luka. tapi jadilah can lebah, walaupun berbisa, tapi menggunakan bisa untuk mempertahankan diri aje and siap produce madu lagi
kepada sesiapa hamba Allah yang terasa, baguslah, mungkin kamu leh ubah kot. maaf jugak kalau post ini menyakitkan mana2 pihak. tapi- tepuk dada, tanyalah- adakah anda terasa? jika ys, anda tahu apa yang perlu dilakukan, bukan?
hidup terlalu singkat untuk tidak memaafkan dan hati terlalu sempit untuk ruang kebencian..
and when you want something, you will give in something in return.
(friendship=love+ trust+hurt+ forgiveness-hate)= happiness
kpd mr oma- tahns, bank rec aku dapat full mark!!!hehe, tmas jugak pada pn hawa, kami dah mahir cket acc,kurang2 dari dulu buta terus sekarang dah nampak sikit walaupun kabur2. alhamdulillah. kpd poye, I owe you one! thanks, buat baik dibalas baik, semoga tuhan balas balik perbuatan baik kau, im happy to have you as my classmate. poye... aku saaayannnnng kau, hey, sebagai kawan je tau.
in the nutshell, aku nak wish kawan kawan aku terutamanya wana,pah,arep, amat, poye, yun, and semua kelas bas 1b best of luck in our final.vidya, ed, ija, dia, syikim,sab,aku tau kita semua leh perform.insyaAllah.ezzah, dayang kema,oli lena,mahirah, fighting!!!."show them how worth we are" -ni addy pnye quote yeng aku kopie tanpa hakcipta. to addy- dont sue me.. hehe
again, best of luck is also dedicated to pak cik faris, mr sir omar qayyum, noel, addy ,kak jehan, kak azim dan semua senior dbte aku..teman dbte seperjuangan pun tak terkecuali, mira, cute dan comel bobo, nik,
i love youguys as much as i love dbting...
to amy and fasha, credited for that day's good advices. im thankful because Allah let us meet. hehe
till then, sekian sudah untuk sesi hari ni, salam.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
minggu yang busy dan tensyen..
senyum kan sedekah
saomeone told me that 'one' person is very good. well, i have to agree.
may Allah bless to all my new sisters- fasha and Amy...
saomeone told me that 'one' person is very good. well, i have to agree.
may Allah bless to all my new sisters- fasha and Amy...
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Don't Little Girl
Don't Little Girl
Don’t fall little girl
Don’t let them see you cry
Stand tall little girl
Keep your head held high
Don’t express little girl
Don’t let them see the pain in your eyes
Walk on little girl
Walk through all those pitiful lies
Don’t forget little girl
Don’t let them do it to you once more
Protect yourself little girl
There’s plenty more in store
Don’t hate little girl
That’s what they want you to do
Smile bright little girl
Try you’re hardest to be true
Don’t wait little girl
The world will move on without you
Move on little girl
Do what you need to do
Don’t look back little girl
You cant change your past
Open your eyes little girl
Enjoy the world while it lasts
Live life little girl
Cause you only got one
Laugh loudly little girl
because life is too short
You’re me little girl
Haven’t we learned a lot?
But your also them little girl
In each of us you have fought
Some call you hope, little girl
You glow dim then turn bright
Some call you dreams, little girl
Thinking of you every night
But to me, little girl
You will always just be me
Guide us, little girl
Cause we both just want to be free
Don’t fall little girl
Don’t let them see you cry
Stand tall little girl
Keep your head held high
Don’t express little girl
Don’t let them see the pain in your eyes
Walk on little girl
Walk through all those pitiful lies
Don’t forget little girl
Don’t let them do it to you once more
Protect yourself little girl
There’s plenty more in store
Don’t hate little girl
That’s what they want you to do
Smile bright little girl
Try you’re hardest to be true
Don’t wait little girl
The world will move on without you
Move on little girl
Do what you need to do
Don’t look back little girl
You cant change your past
Open your eyes little girl
Enjoy the world while it lasts
Live life little girl
Cause you only got one
Laugh loudly little girl
because life is too short
You’re me little girl
Haven’t we learned a lot?
But your also them little girl
In each of us you have fought
Some call you hope, little girl
You glow dim then turn bright
Some call you dreams, little girl
Thinking of you every night
But to me, little girl
You will always just be me
Guide us, little girl
Cause we both just want to be free
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
hari selasa, terpaksa, sengal semua..
post ini saya tuliskah khas buat encik mohd faris bin mohd farid.
untuk seorang yang dah tua, agak busuk, tapi hatinya tersangat sangat baik
hemm.. saya tahu dia sentiasa kata dia jahat cam cipan( ni perumpamaan saya) tapi dia baik.
tahu kenapa?
1) maksud nama dia- Istimewa, permata, tiada bandingan, tunggal, permata yang mahal
memang saya sangat setujulah. permata , semakin banyak usia dia, semakin mahal harganya (antik) dia memang tiada bandingan. memberi nasihat dikala diperlukan sebangai kawan, kadang kadang agak sengal seperti lawan pun ada gak. tapi bila saya lepak dengan dia, memang best sangat sebab dia ni "encyclopedia" bergerak.. ajar saya nak tengok bintang, atau plenet zuhal. tak termasuk lagi spesis penyakit, nasihat keagamaan, etc.. nama ayah dia lah..sowi tersilap translate..).
2) sangat sangat loving dan caring pada kawan kawan dia. orang sakit nak bertambah sakit.. tak, dia tak nak kawan dia sakit dan saya percaya dia rela tanggung kesakitan orang lain.. sebab tu la dia sangat- sangat sekeping. kalau ditiup angin boleh melayang.. tapi walaupun sekeping, dia bukan lalang. lalang tak ada pendirian. dia sangat berpendirian dan juga bertanggungjawab.. walaupun sangat sangat sakitkan hati saya ( kadang-kadang) tapi saya tahu, dia sayang saya macam adik dia.. yelah, budak budak katanya.. (sebenarnya dia yang tua)hehe
3) dia suka berleter.. kadang kadang saya mesti ketawa kalau saya ingat balik.. kelakar.. dia punya ekspresi muka, passion dia.. hemm ( tak leh bagitau)
4) dia suka usik kawan saya- ni saya tak suka. asyik sakat orang aje.. kesian tau.. huhu
"tolong kami, bantu kami, budak budak yang comel"
5) dia busuk, gigi dah goyang.. tu yang kami sayang tue.. lagi satu, mamat ni sukka marah orang, suka jugak ketuk orang.. eish tensyen tensyen)
kesimpulannye.. saya saayanggggg dia.. banyak macam setiap titis air dalam kolah kolej tun mutahir.. sayang macam dia abang saya, kawan, kaunselor dan sebagai-pelbagai spesis sayang lagilah kecuali sepesis kekesih.. nak tahu.,,, awek dia sangat comel...
jd kepada orang yang tahu dia tua dan busuk, maafkanlah saya yer.. ku mahu damai, bukan perang
salam sayang,
senyumkansedekah.com
untuk seorang yang dah tua, agak busuk, tapi hatinya tersangat sangat baik
hemm.. saya tahu dia sentiasa kata dia jahat cam cipan( ni perumpamaan saya) tapi dia baik.
tahu kenapa?
1) maksud nama dia- Istimewa, permata, tiada bandingan, tunggal, permata yang mahal
memang saya sangat setujulah. permata , semakin banyak usia dia, semakin mahal harganya (antik) dia memang tiada bandingan. memberi nasihat dikala diperlukan sebangai kawan, kadang kadang agak sengal seperti lawan pun ada gak. tapi bila saya lepak dengan dia, memang best sangat sebab dia ni "encyclopedia" bergerak.. ajar saya nak tengok bintang, atau plenet zuhal. tak termasuk lagi spesis penyakit, nasihat keagamaan, etc.. nama ayah dia lah..sowi tersilap translate..).
2) sangat sangat loving dan caring pada kawan kawan dia. orang sakit nak bertambah sakit.. tak, dia tak nak kawan dia sakit dan saya percaya dia rela tanggung kesakitan orang lain.. sebab tu la dia sangat- sangat sekeping. kalau ditiup angin boleh melayang.. tapi walaupun sekeping, dia bukan lalang. lalang tak ada pendirian. dia sangat berpendirian dan juga bertanggungjawab.. walaupun sangat sangat sakitkan hati saya ( kadang-kadang) tapi saya tahu, dia sayang saya macam adik dia.. yelah, budak budak katanya.. (sebenarnya dia yang tua)hehe
3) dia suka berleter.. kadang kadang saya mesti ketawa kalau saya ingat balik.. kelakar.. dia punya ekspresi muka, passion dia.. hemm ( tak leh bagitau)
4) dia suka usik kawan saya- ni saya tak suka. asyik sakat orang aje.. kesian tau.. huhu
"tolong kami, bantu kami, budak budak yang comel"
5) dia busuk, gigi dah goyang.. tu yang kami sayang tue.. lagi satu, mamat ni sukka marah orang, suka jugak ketuk orang.. eish tensyen tensyen)
kesimpulannye.. saya saayanggggg dia.. banyak macam setiap titis air dalam kolah kolej tun mutahir.. sayang macam dia abang saya, kawan, kaunselor dan sebagai-pelbagai spesis sayang lagilah kecuali sepesis kekesih.. nak tahu.,,, awek dia sangat comel...
jd kepada orang yang tahu dia tua dan busuk, maafkanlah saya yer.. ku mahu damai, bukan perang
salam sayang,
senyumkansedekah.com
Saturday, October 3, 2009
hai baby hai!!
senyum kan sedekah
seriously ladies and gentleman, today is a happy day like heaven for all of us the debater of uitm kbm especially to adderly, jehan and dato tan sri aiman!!
I know youguys will win at the first place. youguys cool and hot!! like hell.. hehe
im so proud and glad to your victory.
we are CHAMPIONS!!
hehe..
to the people who are at fault for making me feeling sad ( addressed to vidya, noel, faris busuk, and mira for not backing me up)
I want to tell youguys something. do you know that assumption is only a hypothesis and a hypothesis is only a prediction. it need not to be true tau.
but i know youguys are just jesting.
and like hell, you should win Oscar ( a compliment okay). I believed youguys always and
sumpah I sayang yougyus like hell. ( compared its hotness, very very very much )
its the best debating team ever!!
i am so proud of kak fina, kak jehan, kak yati, kak azim, noel, adderly, datuk tan sri aiman zarif, pali, ikhwan, adorable vidya and make up expertise- mira. also not to forget oma for sitting beside me and mumbling to quit( i wont let him quit).
on to answering oma's question, let the past be the past and like hell, I' m so enjoying be with youguys and lepak sama2..
im very thankful to God for his blessing and allow us to meet and be friends with youguys.
youguys are rock babe
seriously ladies and gentleman, today is a happy day like heaven for all of us the debater of uitm kbm especially to adderly, jehan and dato tan sri aiman!!
I know youguys will win at the first place. youguys cool and hot!! like hell.. hehe
im so proud and glad to your victory.
we are CHAMPIONS!!
hehe..
to the people who are at fault for making me feeling sad ( addressed to vidya, noel, faris busuk, and mira for not backing me up)
I want to tell youguys something. do you know that assumption is only a hypothesis and a hypothesis is only a prediction. it need not to be true tau.
but i know youguys are just jesting.
and like hell, you should win Oscar ( a compliment okay). I believed youguys always and
sumpah I sayang yougyus like hell. ( compared its hotness, very very very much )
its the best debating team ever!!
i am so proud of kak fina, kak jehan, kak yati, kak azim, noel, adderly, datuk tan sri aiman zarif, pali, ikhwan, adorable vidya and make up expertise- mira. also not to forget oma for sitting beside me and mumbling to quit( i wont let him quit).
on to answering oma's question, let the past be the past and like hell, I' m so enjoying be with youguys and lepak sama2..
im very thankful to God for his blessing and allow us to meet and be friends with youguys.
youguys are rock babe
Friday, September 18, 2009
raya datang lagi
senyum kan sedekah
selamat hari raya yer kawan- kawan!!
maaf zahir dan batin
semoga hari raya ni memberi sejuta rahmat kepada kita semua- insyaAllah.
selamat hari raya yer kawan- kawan!!
maaf zahir dan batin
semoga hari raya ni memberi sejuta rahmat kepada kita semua- insyaAllah.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
bismillahhirahmannirahim
senyum kan sedekah
hemm, at this moment,I'm not mad anymore
I read a book- terbace pasal something yang aku tak pernah terfikir sebelum ni
WHAT IS YOUR DREAM?
aku tak pernah terfikir pun ape yang aku impikan
impian tak sama dengan cita- cita aku yang nak jadi doktor tak jadi tu, tak serupa dengan lawyer yang kena reject because of my poor english level , pharmasist yang terkubur ditengah jalan walaupun aku sangat sukai ubat- ubat. aku tak pernah terfikir apa impian aku,
actually this question has a very simple answer. my dream is I want an eternal happiness, here and hereafter.
then another question arise- what will i give in order to achieve it?
I have no answer.
can people be happy without any suffering? no- stupid question.
how people want to be happy then?
by solving the problems and not run away - be matured by learning all the mistakes.
nothing in this world is eternal by the way, so as happiness. but eternal hapiness exist for people who always greatful with what they have. although sometimes it seem so inadequate, insufficient.
its not hard Aina to say Alhamdullilah for everything that you done
its not hard too aina to say asthaghfirullah for the wrong thing that you have done- asked for Allah forgiveness.
you will not loss anything if you start your work with Bismillahirahmannirahim.
why it has been so hard for you?
Syakir is right, I'm changing too much- in negative way
bilalah Allah nak bukak pintu hati aku?
aina, bila- bila masa aja tuhan boleh tarik nikmat yang Dia beri kat kau. Tengok macam orang yang kena gilis dengan lori tu, hancur kaki dia within a second. Kun Fayakun. Jadi, maka jadilah.
terlalu sukarkah untuk jadi manusia yang bersyukur cik nurul aina oii?
aku sukakan debate. as for me, debate is the art of expressing yourself- give opinions, as debate build my sely trust, sharpen my critical thinking... maybe im not qualified enough to be a debater...
what would youguys think?
hemm, at this moment,I'm not mad anymore
I read a book- terbace pasal something yang aku tak pernah terfikir sebelum ni
WHAT IS YOUR DREAM?
aku tak pernah terfikir pun ape yang aku impikan
impian tak sama dengan cita- cita aku yang nak jadi doktor tak jadi tu, tak serupa dengan lawyer yang kena reject because of my poor english level , pharmasist yang terkubur ditengah jalan walaupun aku sangat sukai ubat- ubat. aku tak pernah terfikir apa impian aku,
actually this question has a very simple answer. my dream is I want an eternal happiness, here and hereafter.
then another question arise- what will i give in order to achieve it?
I have no answer.
can people be happy without any suffering? no- stupid question.
how people want to be happy then?
by solving the problems and not run away - be matured by learning all the mistakes.
nothing in this world is eternal by the way, so as happiness. but eternal hapiness exist for people who always greatful with what they have. although sometimes it seem so inadequate, insufficient.
its not hard Aina to say Alhamdullilah for everything that you done
its not hard too aina to say asthaghfirullah for the wrong thing that you have done- asked for Allah forgiveness.
you will not loss anything if you start your work with Bismillahirahmannirahim.
why it has been so hard for you?
Syakir is right, I'm changing too much- in negative way
bilalah Allah nak bukak pintu hati aku?
aina, bila- bila masa aja tuhan boleh tarik nikmat yang Dia beri kat kau. Tengok macam orang yang kena gilis dengan lori tu, hancur kaki dia within a second. Kun Fayakun. Jadi, maka jadilah.
terlalu sukarkah untuk jadi manusia yang bersyukur cik nurul aina oii?
aku sukakan debate. as for me, debate is the art of expressing yourself- give opinions, as debate build my sely trust, sharpen my critical thinking... maybe im not qualified enough to be a debater...
what would youguys think?
this post is for adderly and noel- you guys are so MEAN!!!!
senyum kan sedekah
im not going to smile anymore coz I pissed off!!!!!
tak patut korang treat kami macam tu!!!
At least cakap lah ada kerja ker
BOLEH PAKAI TELEFON, TEXT MESSAGE KER!!!
BAGITAHU!!!!
aku tak pernah ponteng pun training tapi ni yang korang treat aku.isk isk
GERAMNYA!!!
jahat nyer korANG!!
noel- kau cakap suruh aku datang kan - walaupun vidya dah baliK kg, doesnt mean yang aku pun boleh skip jugak!!
I was waiting you for ONE hour macam CIPAN!!! alih alih kau tak datang.
you guys tak patut treat kami macam ni, at least kalau nak keluar ke, ada kerja ker, nak pergi enjoy ker,
cakaplah, textlah, or pick up our call. ni, asal call jer, masuk voice mail -kena bayar, last2 tak dapat reach korang jugak
dont treat us like statue, because we are human too, have feeling and honestly, i was very very very sakit hati.
i am very disappointed with youguys today. sangat- sangat. Tuhan jer yang tahu
i waS willing to come although I had classes non stop from noon to 6.30 pm. why you treat us like that??
i respect youguys, but is this act is justified?
my agreement with you noel- it is void
im not going to smile anymore coz I pissed off!!!!!
tak patut korang treat kami macam tu!!!
At least cakap lah ada kerja ker
BOLEH PAKAI TELEFON, TEXT MESSAGE KER!!!
BAGITAHU!!!!
aku tak pernah ponteng pun training tapi ni yang korang treat aku.isk isk
GERAMNYA!!!
jahat nyer korANG!!
noel- kau cakap suruh aku datang kan - walaupun vidya dah baliK kg, doesnt mean yang aku pun boleh skip jugak!!
I was waiting you for ONE hour macam CIPAN!!! alih alih kau tak datang.
you guys tak patut treat kami macam ni, at least kalau nak keluar ke, ada kerja ker, nak pergi enjoy ker,
cakaplah, textlah, or pick up our call. ni, asal call jer, masuk voice mail -kena bayar, last2 tak dapat reach korang jugak
dont treat us like statue, because we are human too, have feeling and honestly, i was very very very sakit hati.
i am very disappointed with youguys today. sangat- sangat. Tuhan jer yang tahu
i waS willing to come although I had classes non stop from noon to 6.30 pm. why you treat us like that??
i respect youguys, but is this act is justified?
my agreement with you noel- it is void
Monday, September 14, 2009
duniaku hari ini
agama untuk mengajar manusia mengerti antara satu sama lain, bertolak ansur, menghormati hak masing masing, bukan gila kuasa, pertumpahan darah untuk memuaskan tuntutan nafsu yang tak berkesudahan
anak anak menangis sendirian, bersorangan di dunia, ketakutan, remaja berusia belasan tahun mengangkat batu; batu kecil untuk menghalang daripade tanah tumpah darah mereka diceroboh,
merayu agar tidak diganggu. menghalang penceroboh memusnahkan rumah yang mereka miliki
akhirnya mereka dibunuh tanpa keperimaknusiaan
digilis gengan kereta kebal,
ditembak sehingga hancur tubuh mereka yang kecil
apa yang saudara seagama mereka- lebih dari satu billion buat?
apa msia lain buat- manusia lain yang ada kaki. mulut. mata . tangan, hati dan manusia yang tahu rasa sakit seperti mereka?
tangisan mereka sudah terlalu kering,
air mata darah sudah seolah tidak lagi bererti
bagaimana lagi yang harus mereka lakukan agar penderitaan yang dialami
diakhiri?
puisi buat anak palestin
Tangis sendu mereka
bagai terngiang di cuping telinga
dekat dan merintih manja
minta belai dan kasih mesra
Tangis anak Palestin itu
bukan cuma sekadar pengharapan
yang kini makin pudar
dimamah gelombang kesatuan yang kian hilang
Anak Palestin itu
menuntut harap
meminta belas
menagih sekota rasa
Bila Ibu ayah mereka kini syahid
Bila negara mereka dirobek rakus
Bila Hidup mereka kian pupus
Dan Pemimpin mereka kini semulusnya
mengikat janji
malara damai
yang tidak kunjung
kerana bangsa yang menggila itu
bukan pemberi simpati
dan rakusnya mereka meratah
tubuh-tubuh yang tidak bersalah
Bangkitlah laungan kesatuan
dalam perjuangan
dalam pengorbanan
dari segenap alam
Kita sebahagian dari mereka
mereka sebahagian dari kita
Hingga lontaran bebatu kerikil jalanan
menghambat 'Yahudi' durjana
dan Islam yang tercinta
pasti ternobat jua akhirnya
anak anak menangis sendirian, bersorangan di dunia, ketakutan, remaja berusia belasan tahun mengangkat batu; batu kecil untuk menghalang daripade tanah tumpah darah mereka diceroboh,
merayu agar tidak diganggu. menghalang penceroboh memusnahkan rumah yang mereka miliki
akhirnya mereka dibunuh tanpa keperimaknusiaan
digilis gengan kereta kebal,
ditembak sehingga hancur tubuh mereka yang kecil
apa yang saudara seagama mereka- lebih dari satu billion buat?
apa msia lain buat- manusia lain yang ada kaki. mulut. mata . tangan, hati dan manusia yang tahu rasa sakit seperti mereka?
tangisan mereka sudah terlalu kering,
air mata darah sudah seolah tidak lagi bererti
bagaimana lagi yang harus mereka lakukan agar penderitaan yang dialami
diakhiri?
puisi buat anak palestin
Tangis sendu mereka
bagai terngiang di cuping telinga
dekat dan merintih manja
minta belai dan kasih mesra
Tangis anak Palestin itu
bukan cuma sekadar pengharapan
yang kini makin pudar
dimamah gelombang kesatuan yang kian hilang
Anak Palestin itu
menuntut harap
meminta belas
menagih sekota rasa
Bila Ibu ayah mereka kini syahid
Bila negara mereka dirobek rakus
Bila Hidup mereka kian pupus
Dan Pemimpin mereka kini semulusnya
mengikat janji
malara damai
yang tidak kunjung
kerana bangsa yang menggila itu
bukan pemberi simpati
dan rakusnya mereka meratah
tubuh-tubuh yang tidak bersalah
Bangkitlah laungan kesatuan
dalam perjuangan
dalam pengorbanan
dari segenap alam
Kita sebahagian dari mereka
mereka sebahagian dari kita
Hingga lontaran bebatu kerikil jalanan
menghambat 'Yahudi' durjana
dan Islam yang tercinta
pasti ternobat jua akhirnya
Monday, September 7, 2009
huhu- another wasting of time session
senyum kan sedekah
for more than one hour im trying to register as member of tv3, finally-
FAILED!!!
geramnya
i dont know what is the cause of my failure but maybe im using my broadband to the wrong purpose
hehe
takperlah.. laen kali leh layan lagi kan?
for more than one hour im trying to register as member of tv3, finally-
FAILED!!!
geramnya
i dont know what is the cause of my failure but maybe im using my broadband to the wrong purpose
hehe
takperlah.. laen kali leh layan lagi kan?
Sunday, September 6, 2009
morning!!
senyum kan sedekah
rase ari ni cam sabtu je..
kenapa dah hari isnin?? cepatnya masa berlalu..
rase ari ni cam sabtu je..
kenapa dah hari isnin?? cepatnya masa berlalu..
ape yang ku taipkan?
senyum kan sedekah
Thought of the day: Fear is subjective, and so is opinions.(faris)
fear is subjective and so opinions.
definitely i agree with his statement
fear is subjective- sometimes it is bad but fear has its own good value.
some people might fear to do the wrong act because of the sin, the punishments and banning from other people.
im writing this post as an reply to faris older post about fear opinions to the killing, inhuman act.
fear is not wrong because here is when the feeling of safe is needed. the feeling of being protected is required. when the nature of the people that is created by Allah has fear, they will not kill each other, they will protect each other. they will fear of what goes around comes around. they scared if they will hurd other people. when fear is gone, they will kill each other, shamelessly doing immoral act. however all of sudden comes opinion.
"I think killing faris is justified because he hurt me. I think defame faris is justified because he is so arrogant and i'm sick of it."( just example, so Pah, I'm not defaming or hate your partner ok?)
opinion and fear is actually against each other.
fear of being outspoken or just opinion that I cant express mysely in the way I like.
or fear created a barrier that is going to limit the peoples opinion?
this complicated world with so many complicated people. complicated minds, unlimited needs with so many restrictions to do anything.
sometimes it is so scary to be alive( fear)
sometimes it is more scary whwn I think about hereafter world.
new word from faris- siesta -take a deep rest, live life to the fullest
the qoute for today- live, life and laugh
menyentuh tentang assimilasi, perkauman, jujur, aku pun hairan. kenapa susah sangat kita manusia yang ada hidung, mata, kaki,telinga tangan jari, mulut dan pelbagai lagi yang tuhan kurniakan walaupun berbeza saiz, panjang, besar, warna untuk hidup tanpa saling menyakiti antara satu sama lain. logiknya, kita semua kan manusia semua keturunan adam. tak kira kamu muslim ke bukan. kita bermafas dalam udara yang sama dan semua manusia akan mati. kenapa perlu bunuh manusia lain walaupun betapa bencinya kamu pada manusia itu? bukankah manusia tu akan mati gak ker?
sedangkan pembunuh dilepaskan atas dasar kemanusiaan, sedangkan pembunuh pun tak dibunuh oleh undang undang, apa hak kita untuk menafikan hak orang lain
aku sangat tak faham kenapa manusia bersikap bengong tak macam manusia
manusia bengong yang menggunakan keganasan untuk menyelesaikan masalah
yang mengikut kata hati yang busuk
yang dangki dan menyibuk pasal hak orang lain
bukankah setiap orang tuhan sudah sediakan rezeki masing masing?
jadi kenapa perlu sakit hati dengan orang lain
kita hidup bukan lama pun
mati jugak akhirnya
terlalu sedikit masa untuk rasa sakit hati
terlalu sedikit masa untuk membenci orang lain
Thought of the day: Fear is subjective, and so is opinions.(faris)
fear is subjective and so opinions.
definitely i agree with his statement
fear is subjective- sometimes it is bad but fear has its own good value.
some people might fear to do the wrong act because of the sin, the punishments and banning from other people.
im writing this post as an reply to faris older post about fear opinions to the killing, inhuman act.
fear is not wrong because here is when the feeling of safe is needed. the feeling of being protected is required. when the nature of the people that is created by Allah has fear, they will not kill each other, they will protect each other. they will fear of what goes around comes around. they scared if they will hurd other people. when fear is gone, they will kill each other, shamelessly doing immoral act. however all of sudden comes opinion.
"I think killing faris is justified because he hurt me. I think defame faris is justified because he is so arrogant and i'm sick of it."( just example, so Pah, I'm not defaming or hate your partner ok?)
opinion and fear is actually against each other.
fear of being outspoken or just opinion that I cant express mysely in the way I like.
or fear created a barrier that is going to limit the peoples opinion?
this complicated world with so many complicated people. complicated minds, unlimited needs with so many restrictions to do anything.
sometimes it is so scary to be alive( fear)
sometimes it is more scary whwn I think about hereafter world.
new word from faris- siesta -take a deep rest, live life to the fullest
the qoute for today- live, life and laugh
menyentuh tentang assimilasi, perkauman, jujur, aku pun hairan. kenapa susah sangat kita manusia yang ada hidung, mata, kaki,telinga tangan jari, mulut dan pelbagai lagi yang tuhan kurniakan walaupun berbeza saiz, panjang, besar, warna untuk hidup tanpa saling menyakiti antara satu sama lain. logiknya, kita semua kan manusia semua keturunan adam. tak kira kamu muslim ke bukan. kita bermafas dalam udara yang sama dan semua manusia akan mati. kenapa perlu bunuh manusia lain walaupun betapa bencinya kamu pada manusia itu? bukankah manusia tu akan mati gak ker?
sedangkan pembunuh dilepaskan atas dasar kemanusiaan, sedangkan pembunuh pun tak dibunuh oleh undang undang, apa hak kita untuk menafikan hak orang lain
aku sangat tak faham kenapa manusia bersikap bengong tak macam manusia
manusia bengong yang menggunakan keganasan untuk menyelesaikan masalah
yang mengikut kata hati yang busuk
yang dangki dan menyibuk pasal hak orang lain
bukankah setiap orang tuhan sudah sediakan rezeki masing masing?
jadi kenapa perlu sakit hati dengan orang lain
kita hidup bukan lama pun
mati jugak akhirnya
terlalu sedikit masa untuk rasa sakit hati
terlalu sedikit masa untuk membenci orang lain
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Friday, September 4, 2009
senyum kan sedekah
lagi satu, lupa pulak nak cakap.(lupa lagi)
aku ni sangat mudah kesian dan risau dan kesian kat orang lain. aku harap kau tak bergantung kt pain killers sebab benda tu bukan menghilangkan sakit, tapi meng'accumulate'kan kesakitan kau. i want you to have a happy life, you cant be happy if you are always sick.
sapa kata sakit hati tak ada ubat? adalah. masa adalah ubat sakit hati yang paling mujarab. memang kau boleh kata parut tu tetap ada tapi parut dah tak sakit lagi kan?
lagi satu, lupa pulak nak cakap.(lupa lagi)
aku ni sangat mudah kesian dan risau dan kesian kat orang lain. aku harap kau tak bergantung kt pain killers sebab benda tu bukan menghilangkan sakit, tapi meng'accumulate'kan kesakitan kau. i want you to have a happy life, you cant be happy if you are always sick.
sapa kata sakit hati tak ada ubat? adalah. masa adalah ubat sakit hati yang paling mujarab. memang kau boleh kata parut tu tetap ada tapi parut dah tak sakit lagi kan?
Adderly- my life saver
senyum kan sedekah
huhu what an unfortunate day for the girl like me.. huhu
I wanted to sit for my Acc test but the stupid thing is I forgot to bring along my calculator, my paper sheet, and my pencil case
I actually wake up at 6.30 am after having 2 and half hour of sleep, then , i went to kbm at 7.40 am. so, I wasn't rushing at all. all all those stuff I already placed it in one place which is in my study desk.
does anyone have the cure for my illnesses?
lucky me - adderly lent me his calculator and pah brought papers for me. so, this people is my life saver..
the test was fine, I got a balanced account but I don't think my entries was right. whatever it is, i just felt so relieved after this test ended.
to noel and faris, sorry for interrupting your peaceful morning.
huhu what an unfortunate day for the girl like me.. huhu
I wanted to sit for my Acc test but the stupid thing is I forgot to bring along my calculator, my paper sheet, and my pencil case
I actually wake up at 6.30 am after having 2 and half hour of sleep, then , i went to kbm at 7.40 am. so, I wasn't rushing at all. all all those stuff I already placed it in one place which is in my study desk.
does anyone have the cure for my illnesses?
lucky me - adderly lent me his calculator and pah brought papers for me. so, this people is my life saver..
the test was fine, I got a balanced account but I don't think my entries was right. whatever it is, i just felt so relieved after this test ended.
to noel and faris, sorry for interrupting your peaceful morning.
Thursday, September 3, 2009
lagu untuk adderly
senyum kan sedekah
yesterday's debate practice i got a topic to be delivered in front of these people- adderly, oma, emy, fas-sya, pah, faris, mira, and kak azim. the topic is "Pluto". I feel a bit absurd without noel 'bulling' us during a debate session by using his dictatorship power.
hehe.
suddenly, during the session, someone was calling me and that person is nazrin.
and my phone's ringtone is - LET IT ROCK
so, all of them was looking at me and suddenly they laugh.
to adderly, my inspiration, i dadicated this song :
Artist: Kevin Rudolf
Let It Rock
(Feat. Lil' Wayne)
(Verse 1: Kevin Rudolf)
I see your dirty face
Hide behind your collar
What is done in vain
Truth is hard to swallow
So you pray to God
To justify the way you live a lie, live a lie, live a lie
And you take your time
And you do your crime
Well you made your bed
I'm in mine
(Chorus)
Because when I arrive
I, I'll bring the fire
Make you come alive
I can take you higher
What this is, forgot?
I must now remind you
Let It Rock
Let It Rock
Let It Rock
(Verse 2: Kevin Rudolf)
Now the son's disgraced
He, who knew his father
When he cursed his name
Turned, and chased the dollar
But it broke his heart
So he stuck his middle finger
To the world
To the world
To the world
And you take your time
And you stand in line
Well you'll get what's yours
I got mine
ceritera hari ini
tetibe aje tak pernah PM Zainuddin cerites pasal student KBM yang kena tangkap basah kat pulau Melaka. Dia nak kami insaf and honestly aku berdoa aku tak buat kesilapan macam tue.
hari ini beliau juga banyak bercerita.. huhu
yesterday's debate practice i got a topic to be delivered in front of these people- adderly, oma, emy, fas-sya, pah, faris, mira, and kak azim. the topic is "Pluto". I feel a bit absurd without noel 'bulling' us during a debate session by using his dictatorship power.
hehe.
suddenly, during the session, someone was calling me and that person is nazrin.
and my phone's ringtone is - LET IT ROCK
so, all of them was looking at me and suddenly they laugh.
to adderly, my inspiration, i dadicated this song :
Artist: Kevin Rudolf
Let It Rock
(Feat. Lil' Wayne)
(Verse 1: Kevin Rudolf)
I see your dirty face
Hide behind your collar
What is done in vain
Truth is hard to swallow
So you pray to God
To justify the way you live a lie, live a lie, live a lie
And you take your time
And you do your crime
Well you made your bed
I'm in mine
(Chorus)
Because when I arrive
I, I'll bring the fire
Make you come alive
I can take you higher
What this is, forgot?
I must now remind you
Let It Rock
Let It Rock
Let It Rock
(Verse 2: Kevin Rudolf)
Now the son's disgraced
He, who knew his father
When he cursed his name
Turned, and chased the dollar
But it broke his heart
So he stuck his middle finger
To the world
To the world
To the world
And you take your time
And you stand in line
Well you'll get what's yours
I got mine
ceritera hari ini
tetibe aje tak pernah PM Zainuddin cerites pasal student KBM yang kena tangkap basah kat pulau Melaka. Dia nak kami insaf and honestly aku berdoa aku tak buat kesilapan macam tue.
hari ini beliau juga banyak bercerita.. huhu
open heart comments
can I give a comment to some people?
of course- its my right since this blog is my territory.
back then in ADS class- some people, who i dont know looks like want to mencapap or literal words- mencari publicity or attention seekers. Im not saying that seeking for attention is wrong but sometimes dont let the third party hurt because of your act. for example durng a presentation - when your classmate is delivering his speech, do not say that what is delivered by them is wrong because they have already worked hard on it. try their best to make you guys listen. its hard for certain people like my friends. what are your feeling when other people say that you are not answering the question? all of your effort are going to be waste. pliz dont effect the lectures on you guys ability to detect other people weakness!! hello, NOBODY PERFECT. appreciate other people work. people will appreciate yours too.
I hate to see when my friend kena tembak dengan statement awak tak menjawab soalan saya. come on you guys- its a win win situation. no need to produce this statement or to argue with the presenter. ceria ceria selalu
spongebob is a gay
what an interesting topic to be argued with!!
Im not going to argue with this just want to tell something.
because of my memory problems, I dont want to forget this:
Gay is defined by faris as happiness, as the ancient or the originated version of the meaning of this word, precisely suit with spongebob character- happy, doing everything with fun and to the fullest, honest and sincerity . suddenly in that moment its thought across my mind- would real people in this real world exist like the man in sponge? I back to oppose.
till then, chow and selamat bersahur
of course- its my right since this blog is my territory.
back then in ADS class- some people, who i dont know looks like want to mencapap or literal words- mencari publicity or attention seekers. Im not saying that seeking for attention is wrong but sometimes dont let the third party hurt because of your act. for example durng a presentation - when your classmate is delivering his speech, do not say that what is delivered by them is wrong because they have already worked hard on it. try their best to make you guys listen. its hard for certain people like my friends. what are your feeling when other people say that you are not answering the question? all of your effort are going to be waste. pliz dont effect the lectures on you guys ability to detect other people weakness!! hello, NOBODY PERFECT. appreciate other people work. people will appreciate yours too.
I hate to see when my friend kena tembak dengan statement awak tak menjawab soalan saya. come on you guys- its a win win situation. no need to produce this statement or to argue with the presenter. ceria ceria selalu
spongebob is a gay
what an interesting topic to be argued with!!
Im not going to argue with this just want to tell something.
because of my memory problems, I dont want to forget this:
Gay is defined by faris as happiness, as the ancient or the originated version of the meaning of this word, precisely suit with spongebob character- happy, doing everything with fun and to the fullest, honest and sincerity . suddenly in that moment its thought across my mind- would real people in this real world exist like the man in sponge? I back to oppose.
till then, chow and selamat bersahur
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
bila kelas citu bermula
senyum kan sedekah, senyum-senyumlah
maka ramailah mereka yang tak menghadirkan diri, mengantuk
termasuk aku..
huhu, sadis, tapi, itulah hakikatnyer
aku start bimbang ape yang akan aku tulis dalam kertas final citu aku
huhu,
ustaz, tahukah ustaz aku sayang padamu??
maka ramailah mereka yang tak menghadirkan diri, mengantuk
termasuk aku..
huhu, sadis, tapi, itulah hakikatnyer
aku start bimbang ape yang akan aku tulis dalam kertas final citu aku
huhu,
ustaz, tahukah ustaz aku sayang padamu??
Monday, August 31, 2009
My pricious lab test
senyum kan sedekah
cipan!! one precise words for my stupid lab test. a
arrgh!! geramnyer!!! I can do better than that! huhu, hancur
tengah syok- syok tetibe je hang! kena restart balik sedangkan masa tinggal 10 minutes!!!! cam nak mati aku siapkan.akhirnya tak sempat siap jugak!! huhu, sadis betul tak leh nak tunjuk skill aku dalam photoshop nie.. huhu
cipan!! one precise words for my stupid lab test. a
arrgh!! geramnyer!!! I can do better than that! huhu, hancur
tengah syok- syok tetibe je hang! kena restart balik sedangkan masa tinggal 10 minutes!!!! cam nak mati aku siapkan.akhirnya tak sempat siap jugak!! huhu, sadis betul tak leh nak tunjuk skill aku dalam photoshop nie.. huhu
ahlan wasalam ya blogger
senyum kan sedekah
cam ner, hemm, this is my second blog- after a very long time i' m not posting anything to my old blog, so I was totally forgot the password and I cant open it anymore. my friend used to call me short term memory loss or short term loss memory- whatever it is, I'm honestly a very forgetful person. maybe back than I love to eat 'Mata Ikan' or maybe I just don't really care what is going on. I don't know.
now, after blah from hell (Shah Alam), I'm here in Malacca. with hang tuah stuff and tulah thing, basically, I'm continuing my life in here. Also. here, i meet with some people - some interesting people, my classmates( not all interesting) but people like oli the crazy wanna be, wana the sporty girl, yatt the rock, sab the sweet, Ija the late Processing information but kind, Dia the sekeping president club, syikim the vice president of sekeping club, the two always seen together, the ultimate debater of the year vidya and her sweet housemate- ed, the so called class rep- pokye, the sexy eyes arep, the innocent amat and talkative girl- pah. my new world is wonderful with these people though in actually in another stage of hell- KBM.
I wish i could perform well in exam n graduate with every semester in Dean's list. Insya-Allah.
my house- house of Nyah- all of us are transgenders. A-7-5 with a lot of craziness and fun. sometimes we kick each other ass, and sometimes we take care of each other. I know, though i seldomly in the house, we do love each other- assumption ladies and gentlemen.
I am a debater. I am a critical thinker.I love to read, yet still love to lepak with my friends.
I'm being a debater because of one particular person who inspires me the most in the art or debating. though my english honestly sucks, but the person force me to go for it, just ignore if people laugh at you because of your stupid illogical arguments, at 7 minutes of delivering the speech, you are the smartest people in the world. if something goes wrong, FTW. i think i am braver than before. I'm stronger than before.
cam ner, hemm, this is my second blog- after a very long time i' m not posting anything to my old blog, so I was totally forgot the password and I cant open it anymore. my friend used to call me short term memory loss or short term loss memory- whatever it is, I'm honestly a very forgetful person. maybe back than I love to eat 'Mata Ikan' or maybe I just don't really care what is going on. I don't know.
now, after blah from hell (Shah Alam), I'm here in Malacca. with hang tuah stuff and tulah thing, basically, I'm continuing my life in here. Also. here, i meet with some people - some interesting people, my classmates( not all interesting) but people like oli the crazy wanna be, wana the sporty girl, yatt the rock, sab the sweet, Ija the late Processing information but kind, Dia the sekeping president club, syikim the vice president of sekeping club, the two always seen together, the ultimate debater of the year vidya and her sweet housemate- ed, the so called class rep- pokye, the sexy eyes arep, the innocent amat and talkative girl- pah. my new world is wonderful with these people though in actually in another stage of hell- KBM.
I wish i could perform well in exam n graduate with every semester in Dean's list. Insya-Allah.
my house- house of Nyah- all of us are transgenders. A-7-5 with a lot of craziness and fun. sometimes we kick each other ass, and sometimes we take care of each other. I know, though i seldomly in the house, we do love each other- assumption ladies and gentlemen.
I am a debater. I am a critical thinker.I love to read, yet still love to lepak with my friends.
I'm being a debater because of one particular person who inspires me the most in the art or debating. though my english honestly sucks, but the person force me to go for it, just ignore if people laugh at you because of your stupid illogical arguments, at 7 minutes of delivering the speech, you are the smartest people in the world. if something goes wrong, FTW. i think i am braver than before. I'm stronger than before.
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